I don’t know what God‘s plan is, but it must be better than my own. And it must be REALLY GOOD! 2019 was a BRUTI-ful year for not only me, but our fam. As we started to get back to normal adjusting to life after 4, weaning BF sent my body into a tailspin having doctors stumped as to WHAT was going on. Writing it off as “you’re 35 and had a baby last year, it’ll recover just keep doing what you’re doing”🙄 Wellllll what they didn’t know was my body going into survival mode, slowing things to dangerous levels to maintain energy keeping heart pumping and circulating. I was closer to having “cardiac collapse” than healing😬 My emotions were all over the place. Grateful, pissed, anxious, pissed, hurt. How could God call me on this path years ago to help heal my chronic pain just to allow this that no pain drug could touch just to allow this 💩? 👉🏻To teach me to SURRENDER and REST.
These were DIRTY words to me, words only the WEAK and lazy used. Ohhhhh is God ever humbling #amIright?😂🤣 See, he keeps repeating lessons until we learn, in my case I was thick skulled and he went to extremes (again😬). I was OVER IT🙅🏼♀️ I didn’t want to be on this path, I prayed for him to give me an easier path, A DIFFERENT PATH. Over and over I was reminded my pain has PURPOSE! Share it! Use it! Other then yesterday’s set back (in stories), past 5 days all insidious GOOD side effects have subsided so that I just feel GOOD🙌🏻 The BIG one testing my mental strength was estrogen dominance🙄 Tho you understand what’s medically happening to you, emotionally feeling fluffy for MONTHS straight is HARD! I’m the girl who would give up diets after 3 days. can you imagine having to do it 6 MONTHS with NO IDEA if it was working? 👉🏻Old meg would’ve said “I’ll start again after I heal”🤦🏼♀️ We alllll claim to have faith, but it shows in our ACTIONS! Good news, Adrenals are improving, slowly getting back to where I was, now only dealing with thyroid being stubborn. 1.5 more months to go for healing. 2020 is going to be a BIG year! Sister, stay consistent, + get daily support! Those small steps will change your life! 🤷🏼♀️Don’t have that support? Let’s connect!