Depression & Anxiety

Depression & Anxiety... When this 𤬠flares + I feel like a freakin LUNATIC. It gets inside my head and makes me think things I KNOW aren't true. But, somehow plays over and over like a highlight reel until I believe it. Started out strong, team video done for coaches how I knock out my "work" daily step by stepš¤ Gabby in a good moodš¤ Girls doing AMAZING in classes tho bigs trying to cut corners in someš¤ Then things fell apartš The knot in the chest, hard to breath, lightheadedness, panic from all the stress the past couple weeks winsš Feeling low from the weight of all that keeps happening. Doubting myselfā¹ And a workout? Yeah right, I'd rather climb in bed and pretend the day doesn't existš BUT, I've dealt with this for years and I've now learned that THESE moments when I want to lay in bed and "hide" -- are really the moments that I NEED to face it HEAD ONš¬ šš»Sooo, I put my freaking workout clothes on. .... then sat on the bed crying for 30mins just releasing the stress while Kiley brings me tissues every few minsš #babysteps ā”ļøIts OKAY to cry ā”ļøits okay to fall apart for a moment but ā”ļøits NOT okay to stop and unpack in that placeš« Pity party complete, I got up, bc this mama needed to burn off the crazy𤪠ā”ļøI DO have control over my thoughts and actions, tho this nasty demon tries to convince me otherwise! And as freaking IMPOSSIBLE as this feels right now - I KNOW it's exactly what I needed. šš»So, if you're in the same boatā¤µļø ā”ļø you're not alone ā”ļø you ARE in control of your thoughts & actions ā”ļø your body needs endorphins so go get a workout inš
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