Depression & Anxiety... When this 🤬 flares + I feel like a freakin LUNATIC. It gets inside my head and makes me think things I KNOW aren't true. But, somehow plays over and over like a highlight reel until I believe it. Started out strong, team video done for coaches how I knock out my "work" daily step by step🤗 Gabby in a good mood🤗 Girls doing AMAZING in classes tho bigs trying to cut corners in some🤗 Then things fell apart🙄 The knot in the chest, hard to breath, lightheadedness, panic from all the stress the past couple weeks wins👎 Feeling low from the weight of all that keeps happening. Doubting myself☹ And a workout? Yeah right, I'd rather climb in bed and pretend the day doesn't exist🙈 BUT, I've dealt with this for years and I've now learned that THESE moments when I want to lay in bed and "hide" -- are really the moments that I NEED to face it HEAD ON😬 👉🏻Sooo, I put my freaking workout clothes on. .... then sat on the bed crying for 30mins just releasing the stress while Kiley brings me tissues every few mins😂 #babysteps ➡️Its OKAY to cry ➡️its okay to fall apart for a moment but ➡️its NOT okay to stop and unpack in that place🚫 Pity party complete, I got up, bc this mama needed to burn off the crazy🤪 ➡️I DO have control over my thoughts and actions, tho this nasty demon tries to convince me otherwise! And as freaking IMPOSSIBLE as this feels right now - I KNOW it's exactly what I needed. 👉🏻So, if you're in the same boat⤵️ ➡️ you're not alone ➡️ you ARE in control of your thoughts & actions ➡️ your body needs endorphins so go get a workout in😜

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